..took a risk

..today I took a big risk…as I write this blog I kept contemplating of the decision that I made... was it correct?..or was it a very big mistake that I will regret later?...i’m not sure if the move that I’ve made was another sign of my stupidity…or a sign that i have learned how to be stronger...more mature...

..they say that one shouldn’t be afraid of taking risks…well here I am...i took one…and I don’t know where this would take me…the decision that I made will affect everything that will happen in the coming days, weeks, and years…it will have a very big effect on my life…so far this is one of the biggest risks that I have taken in my life…pls. Lord don’t let this one break me…

..time is never really on my side…today I have made up my mind…that’s why I was rushing to send an e-mail to the persons concerned…but the USAP email was too slow…and when I asked someone about the matter…she told me that I need a hard copy and an approval from someone before I start counting the days…today my mind is made up…being feeble that I am when it comes to big decisions, I know that tomorrow I may start to think or believe the opposite of what I have decided today…

..the decision I have made today was a big one…and it took up a lot of my time and mental power (aba! Mental power ha!..hehe)…although I’m not 100% sure about it..i know that someday it’s something that I will have to do…and I’d rather do it now than wait and cause other people a lot of inconvenience..(bka nga mtuwa pa sila eh…hehehe)

..starting tomorrow I will start counting 30 days…30 days…30 days……..i’m not sure if I want those 30 days to last longer or shorter than it should be…..i’m gonna make the most of those 30 days….

don't let go too soon, don't hold on for too long..

i read a blog post titled hang on..actually the next three paragraphs you are going to read is the comment i posted there..i just had to respond or comment on that post..especially on the line don't let go too soon, but don't hold on for too long...when is it too long, and when is it too soon?

..i don't think you'll ever know when it's too soon or too long...coz when you love someone often times you are blinded by that love...and of course you'll hold on as long as you can..no matter how painful things, issues, and words are starting to grow..maybe you'll only realize that you've been holding on for too long when you've already let the other person go..when you've finally and totally moved on..looking back at the past will make you see a lot of things..especially the things that you didn't see before...

and you'll never know that it's too soon until you feel the regret of letting the other person go..and realizing that there was somehow a big potential between the two of you..if only you didn't let him go..if only you fought for whatever it is that you feel for that person...

never be afraid to take risks..whether it be a risk of letting go or holding on...risks and regrets come hand in hand..but you won't feel so much regret if you enjoyed taking that certain risk...if taking that risk has somehow made your life worth living...