..pain is one word that has been common to me for such a long time...i thought nothing could hurt me more that my past...but i guess i was wrong...
..i'm in soo much pain right now, i don't know how to deal with it...but i'm trying to..i've been successful in holding back my tears for atleast 4 or 5 days now..but it's only making me feel heavier inside...
..i can't stand being alone...i'm ok in front of others...i'm ok infront of him...but when i'm alone, i instantly look for someone to talk to, coz i know tears will start to fill my eyes again...
..but guess what,i'm alone right now..thank god for compiters and internet, atleast i have something to do...
..i miss him so much...sooooo much....
..but i guess i can never be anymore...so i'll bid farewell to a dream...i'll say goodbye to the love i've been holding on for so long...and i'll try to live life on my own..without him...
..but i'm still hoping he can keep his promise...
