sleep deprived!

...i wanna get some sleep...some more sleep actually...i feel so sleep deprived... let me tell you why...

first of all i have work.it doesn't make sense that i'm sleep deprived just because i got work, right?...actually it's not just the work..it's the schedule...my shift is from 3:30am-12:30pm... and since i'm quite scared of leaving my place during wee hours in the morning i chose to go out at around 12am...so that means i'm up from around 10pm (i'm still so mbagal..i need more than an hour to prepare if i'm going out...hehehe)...then i only get to sleep at around 1:30 or later...coz that's the time i get home...so that means i'm at work from 12:30am-12:30pm....12 hours of being in the office, two hours for preparing for work, roughly an hour and a half of travel to and from work, and approximately an hour and a half for my meals (after work-12:30pm lunch, and 7:30pm for dinner)...for a grand total of 17 hours of being awake...that leaves me with only 7 hours to sleep... then there days when i'm not able to sleep at once coz it's either too hot or i'm waiting for someone...so that leaves me with less than 5 hours of sleep...

second reason why i'm sleep deprived is that somtimes i really don't sleep..wahehehe...i'm often awake in the afternoon until the time that i have to start preparing for work again...it's hard to sleep sometimes coz it get's too hot here...our room feels like an oven...literaly!

...well...sleep deprived or not...i really want to get some sleep right now...a good one week worth of all sleeping time...hehehe... antokin??

new place, new beginning

..it's been more than two months since i have left the quiet place where i grew up...yes, there were issues from that place that i had to get away from..but i never thought things would be this hard here...i've been staying in the busy place called Pasig...i've been here for more than two months...in the first few weeks i have learned to keep my mouth shut about some things...but of course there will come a time when you know you have to speak up...and that's what happened...

..someone was doing things that i didn't like...she was telling a lot of things about me...then i got pissed off, i confronted her...not knowing that a big mess would come my way once i spoke up...
..and yes that BIG MESS indeed came...and it didn't end there...even her parents are joining in on the fight that we have...which pisses me off and at the same time makes me the kind of animals they are...if they only knew what their daughter have been doing since she met my hubby...then maybe they wouldn't react that way...well...right now i don't care...they can do or say whatever they want..i don't give a damn...as long as i know that leo is on my side I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!!!...

..yes it hurts to know that you can't even fight for yourself at times when you know you have every right to do so...but what the hell...i can't defend myself?...i do care...i wan't to defend myself...but i don't want to stoop to their level...so i'll just keep everything to myself and stay as the intelligent young lady that i am...

..i still have leo...and i know i always will...