..lately

..i haven't been myself lately...slowly things that used to matter the most to me are starting to slip away....he knows how busy i've been..he knows how hard the changes have been for me...i know he's trying to understand everything that's happening...but it seems that he can't....i know i'm hurting him with everything...every hour that i seem to manage to make him feel unimportant...but it's not true...he's still important...very important to me...it's just that lately i have to joggle a lot of things...a lot of important things...i hope he gets to read this....i don't know how to explain myself to him...i want things back the way they used to be...but i'm afraid that slowly i'm growing..growing more preoccupied with so many things..dealing with the life that i have here-away from him.....growing more mature...slowly growing away from him.....

..slowly i'm getting used to him being away...to him not being able to be there for me.......slowly i'm getting used to not having him....i don't want to get used to it......i gotta go back to who i used to be...i gotta go back to the person who's always longing for him.......i gotta go back.... ='(

six random things.....

..got tagged by ate nice...

since my brain's not functioning properly today...i'll try this one..it might help..hehe

here's the rule: Link to the person who has tagged you. Post the rules on your blog. Share six un-important things/habits/quirks about yourself. Tag 6 random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs. Let these random people know that they are tagged by leaving comments in their blog. Let your tagger know when your entry is up.

So here we go:

1. i don't like seafoods..even fish....

2. i wake up every time i receive a text message at night, then fall asleep again even before i reply...hehe...

3. one of the main reasons why i go to my lola's house every sunday is to watch csi...that would be teh only time i watch tv for more than 30 min...

4. the very first thing i do when i wake up is check my phone for calls and messages...

5.i always read other peoples ym stats..just to relax my mind a little when it's starting get a little too tired...

6. i can't sleep without my bear..(take note my bear is wearing a bikini top..heheh)

...am now tagging ate yhen, jam, hazey, chris, kr, twnx.....

..playing with hearts...

..can you blame someone if that person starts falling for someone else?..i mean what if you loved someone so much..you were inseparable..then one day you got separated..you both fought for whatever it is that you had..you loved each other a lot...but what if because of your short comings that person found someone else?..what would you do?..would you still continue to love that person?..would you force yourself to be with that person despite the fact that his/her heart now belongs to someone else?... what if you were on the other person's place?...will you just forget the love that you once shared?..will you think that you'll be happy in the arms of your new love?...are you sure it's worth giving up the old love that you've had for years just for the spark of a new flame?....think about it..it's hard enough just thinking what you would do if you were in their place...what if you really were.....can you imagine that agony?...i sure can't.......

..if you were in the place of the one who's falling, be careful...if you are only playing you have to be very careful...remember you are playing with hearts....three fragile hearts...one belongs to the person you've loved, the other to the person you are falling for...and the other...guess to whom it belongs......

..it's yours my dear...your heart.....

..it will break too if ever you made the wrong choice....

..be careful...be very careful....

..tagged by ate yhen

1. Song that always makes you sad? Dance with my father...
2. Last thing you bought (food?)? fit&right (apple)
3. Last person you argued with? mama
4. Do you put Butter before putting the jelly on? nope..i don't like peanut butter....
5. One of your stuffed animals' names as a kid? booboo (until now...i have a stuffed toy named booboo)
6. Did you ever own at one time a Nysnc Cd? ..yup....i still listen to it....
7. Favorite day of the week? Saturday
8. Favorite Sundae topping?: chocolates
9. Did you take Piano lessons? nope...never liked to play musical instruments
10. Most frequent song played? back in to you-amber davis....
11. T.V. show you secretly enjoy? one tree hill...
12. Would you rather play basketball or hockey? basketball
13. Date someone older or younger? i'd probably go with the older guys....i see younger guys as my little brother...
14. One place you would wish to travel right now? anywhere basta my beach...or pool...hehehe
15. Do you use umbrellas? ..yup...
16. Do you know all the words to the Canadian national anthem? ..nope...para ano pa?hehehe
17. Favorite Cheese? ...ahmmmm...cheese?! hehehe...
18. Disturbed or My Chemical Romance? my chmical romance...i'm not very familiar with disturbed...
19. Do you prefer Blondes or Brunettes? brunettes...
20. Best job you ever had? ..ahhhmmm...as a writer...hehehe
21. did you go to your high school prom? ..yup.......never regret i did...:)
22. perfect time to wake up? 9 am....
23. perfect time to go to bed? 12 midnight
24. do you use your queen right away in chess? ...ahmmmm...i don't play chess..i don't know how to...
25. Ever been in a car accident? yup
26. closer to mom or dad...or neither? mom....
27. what age is this exciting life over for you? 20-21...(hmmm...bkit kya....hihihi)
28. what decade during the 20th century would you have chosen to be a teenager?: ..this decade...
29. Favorite shoes you have EVER owned? my last pair of black shoes...the pointy ones...hehehe
30. Do you have an article of clothing you have had since you were in high school? yes..my p.e. uniform...
31. Were you in track and field?: nope...but i liked running..fast...hehehe
32. Were you ever in a school talent show? ..nope...thank God!..hehe
33. Have you ever written in a library book? ..yup...a lot of times...hihihi
34. Allergic to? sea foods like crabs and shrimp....
35. Favorite fruit? mango, apple (fuji apples)
36. Have you watched sex and the city? ..once i think....
37. Baseball hat or toque?baseball hat...
38. Do you shampoo first in the shower or soap? shampoo first....
39. Wet the toothbrush or brush dry with the toothpaste?: wet the toothbrush first...
40. Pen or pencil?: pencil..or sign pen...maarte ba?hehehhe
41. Have you ever gambled at a casino? nope...
42. Have you thrown up on a plane?: nope..never been on a plane...
43. Have you thrown up in a car? ..yup...hehe...
44. Have you thrown up at work? ..yup...but no one knew...until now..hehehe
45. Do you scream on roller coasters? ..yup....
46. Who was your first prom date? i didn't get his name..hehehe...he was in fourth year..i really didn't know him...
47. Who was your first roommate? ..my sis...
48. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk for the first time? ..beer...red horse....
49. What was your first job? office assistant....real job?...writer...
50. What was your first car? none so far, but i had one that was named to me only in the papers....it was a Toyota Tercel...
51. When did you go to your first funeral?..my dad's.... :'(
52. How old were you when you first travelled away from your hometown? ..5 or 4, i think....
53. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs. Seminiano...
54. Where did you go on your first airplane ride? haven't been on a plane trip...kulet nmn..hehe
55. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with?: my elementary friends...
56. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them? Merlyn...unfortunately we lost contact........
57. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parent's house? ..i haven't moved out...but i'm planning to...
58. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? ..my hubby.....
59. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? ..my mom's friend
60. What is the first thing you do in the morning? ..text....
61. What was the first concert you attended?: ..first concert...ahhhmm....i believe it was imago...
62. First tattoo or piercing? ear piercing…tattoo...henna...
63. First celebrity crush? Justine Timberlake...Kevin Cosner....:D

..i'll tag cris, jam, hazey, and kr.........