..one line

..for more than a week now all my plans have been placed on hold...i don't know what's about to come and don't know what's gonna happen in the next months...

today i asked for a sign..and i waited 5 min for that sign..it was the longest 5 min i've had..then there it was...one line..one red line..which means that everything should go on as it should..nothing should change..

now i have to wait 5 days to try to ask for a sign again...haaaist...

this is not at all easy...

..somehow i also wanted thngs to change...i'm ready for changes...i'm ready for responsibility..but maybe the "responsibility" isn't ready for me yet...

..it's all mixed emotions that i feel now...i'm happy coz i get to stay out late again..drink every weekends and i don't have to worry about not being able to go out with my friends...but i'm sad coz in the last couple of days i felt that i'm ready..and the anticipation is killiing me...

..don't really now what to do or what to feel...